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Stress, Hurt, Life.
"Stress is part and partial of life, we must learn how to face it."
Hi peeps, In life we all do have stressful times. Its good to have stress, but not too much. Stress is part and partial of life, but I don't like it. >< Studies, Relationships, Friends, Family and other minor stuffs in my life make me really stressful. Sometimes I feel like giving up in everything, so that maybe I could be stress free then. But me being a perfectionist, I have very high expectations on myself. I must always do well in whatever I am doing, if not I think I am a failure. Its good and bad. Good because I set high expectations and works towards it. Bad because if I can't achieve what I expect, I will feel demoralise. One of the larger segment of my stress is Studies. As said, I do expect a lot from myself in achieving good grades. But many a times it turns out to be crap. These made me really stressed up for my N level. Being afraid that I can't make it... I am also very sensitive to how people look at me. How they feel about me. Means a lot to me. If I don't do well and go to ITE, how will people see me? ITE is a good place, but it's just the environment. But its me that is pressuring myself a lot. I don't know why, but God created me like this and I do believe that he has a purpose. :) Relationship, its complicated and also added a lot to my stress. Not going to elaborate much as I have already said in my previous post. But I shall slowly get over it. It will be a painful and slow process, but I am gonna face it. >< Friendship is another problem I also do face... Conflicts at times, Disagreement most of the times and many more. It actually do add in to the stress unknowingly sometimes. But in the end of the day, they the one that are always by your side when you need them, besides your family. Family. A big faction of our lives. Only family will do everything and anything to help you at times of your needs. They are the one they gives you the best support always. But sometimes things happen in my family that made me really upset. I really don't know what to do but to turn to God. But no matter what, I always love my parents. They never fail to give us encouragement and always try to be like us when interact in us. Thank God for putting me in this family. :) I do face many challenges in lives, but that is when I learnt to get over it. Also this I when all my closest friends and family come together to give me hope and affirm me. I feel very fortunate to have such people around me. Thank you all for doing so much for me! :) God bless! :) Love is Complicated...
" I shall let Love come and go easily in life, maybe then I won't be that hurt. "
Yeap, as what the title says... Being in love is really complicated. I really don't understand certain things about love. I shall never go into one I guess, after this incident... Developing feelings for this girl at Sec 2, Tried to get together but she wasn't ready. I told her I would wait. Sec 3 she tried to get together with me, but I wasn't ready. Always regretted that decision I made. -.- So for the whole of my Sec 4 we did interact often. We knew we liked each other, but something I never wanted to happen, happened... We go for badminton with our friends every Friday. So slowly, she started to text my very close buddy. Didn't expect them to develop feelings for each other. Was a shock to me. I couldn't take it. I had a feeling that even words can't even explain. Many sleepless nights and couldn't concentrate in doing anything. But since this already happened, all I want is my best buddy and the person I love to be happy. So I chose to tell her that I should give her up. Up till now, I have been trying all ways to be distracted. But always I couldn't. There is always something that I do that will remind me of her. I am really lost and confuse now. This feeling sucks. But I can say I felt a little better when my dearest friends Jeremy Chui and Sheryl Toh understands me and affirm me in their own ways. They helped to see things in a different way. Although its hard, I am trying to. Trying to do all I can to give her up. Like what Sheryl said, " Time doesn't heal when you are not ready to move on. " So maybe I should move on although it might not easy, but I believe i will be able to? I don't know. God has a plans for me in His own special ways. I shall just summit to it. Because of this, I tell myself that I do not want to be this hurt already. So I shall get into any relationship until I think I am ready. I shall be like how I am now and do what I like. And also I shall never love someone so deep already. I don't know if I am doing it right, but this is what I think. Not forgetting to thank my closest friend, Sheryl, for her blog post for me... Thanks for being there for me when I needed someone to hear me out. You really understand me and never fail to be there for me. You are one of my trusted and closest friend that I have known. I also hope I could be there to hear you out in your stress and problems in life. Like how you didn't forget our promise, I didn't too! So hope we could be as close as we were last time! Miss those times! :) Thank you. :) |
